It's full moon tonight, dear

Yes, just like last a month and many months before, it is full moon, again, tonight.

What so special about full moon that people give special meaning to it? Some believe that suicide, accident, aggression, even madness occur more in full moon. The rest are sceptical and put nothing but coincidence as governing factor.

Regardless the controversy surrounding the phenomenon, moon is undeniably posed at a high place in human heart, is it not right my moonlight? Hunters in ancient time worshipped Moon Goddess for her generosity in providing games for them, numerous songs are dedicated to the moon, children play under full moon (when children play, earth revolves, sky smiles) lovers kiss and hearts are broken in a full moon.

This ordinary person, for sure, will, again, spent his extra time to look up and see the moon in her full revelation of beauty.

It's full moon tonight, dear. Awe, memory, expectation, and admiration.

Song of the Day...

IN MY PLACE
by coldplay

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah

I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for you

If you go, if you go
Leaving me down here on my own
Then I'll wait for you

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

Sing it Please, please, please
Come back come sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, now, now
Come on and sing it now, to me, me
Come back, come sing

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah
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ps. me and my dear life....

Why can't we be friends?

Coming from an average-middle-class family in a city like Jakarta, having a proper education, and leading a life for more than 30 years, I find it easy to make (new) friends.

For me attending a social function in the neighborhood will bring me one friend or two, logging in to friendster will certainly open an opportunity to make friend, even waiting for a bus in a bus shelter sometimes gives me a chance to form an acquaintance.

It is kind of hard for me to accept that some people just close their heart to friendship. Take the middle east crisis, religious clash in Poso and Ambon, massacre in Sudan, etc. etc. It only takes the words: stop, forgive, and forget. I agree that the PAIN hurts one's heart so much, but one must bury the hatchet and go on living a peaceful life, otherwise one will not be able to enjoy the life. Shake hand with your former enemy, your ex-spouse, your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend. Share your life with friends. I believe it will make one's life more enjoyable.

One more thing, A friend can come from someone OTHER than you, he/she can be your lover, spouse, or maybe former enemy.

"I can't read the future, I still wanna hold you close...." (Jon Secada)

Adios mi amiga

Things one can be

Could not sleep well last night, something nagging and I ended up getting out of my bedroom at 03.30 this morning. Did not really know what to do otherwise I played "Catch me if you can" of Leonardo di Caprio.

Done, I saw Frank Abagnale Jr. in me. No, it is not about his interest in young beautiful females (not all true, blink-blink), or his eagerness to pile up his fortune in easy way. I am talking about being anything you wanna be, doing anything you are able to do (well, legally in my case) and go everywhere you like.

I am old now, over 30. To tell myself the truth, I still can not point out what I really wanna be. I once wanted to be a fighter pilot, karate artist, policeman, diplomat, singer (please wipe that grin out of your face!), to tell you a few and not to mention being A BATMAN along with all his super-human physique, charm and fortune. But, hey, it was way back then before I kiss this life hello (not for Batman part, though). I am suppposed to be a mature adult now.

Look at me! a state-owned enterprise's employee, a bolt in a state. I am not self-pitying myself. I thank LIFE for making me like this, despite all the shortcomings. It is just that I still can stop this wish to be somebody I am not. Hopefully not YET. This ambition (or illusion) in my head keeps saying that someday, someway, I will be SOMEBODY. Yes, I remember the saying; a journey of thousand miles is started with one step.

Quote of the day

"If I can not promise anything today, then how can I promise tomorrow?"

No more empty promises, no more high expectations. Ask me now, ask me once.
One day from now, today is tomorrow. And at last, time will tell.

me and my dear life....