When is it?

When is it the time for you to feel that you miss someone so much, that you think those persons you are missing are simply non-replaceable, that you want to be near them forever? For me the time is when I have to do something at night.

It happened when I had to study all night because in the morning I had to get an exam and the days before I was busy doing nothing. It happened when I had to do some homework from office and I did not have time to finish it by day.
So, night is not the answer for my prior question, the answer is a combination between something urgent to do (which wouldn’t be that urgent had I finished that earlier) and loneliness.

How do I realize this? When I studied at those lonely, cold, night time in Malmoe back then, nobody kept me accompanied (well, most of the time). When I brought homework from office usually I did it alone. But last night was different. Lala was there for me. She forego our warm bed, her 7 months old toy and cramped her body in the sofa, switching from one channel to another just to be with me. For the first time I realize, I am afraid of loneliness. Maybe that’s why I am addicted to friendship. Deep inside I always in need of a company and friends guarantee acquaintances. I am afraid of loneliness. I am afraid of loneliness. I am afraid of loneliness.