Craving

Yes, I want it.
How do you cope with your need? You crave for something, you must have done anything at your disposal to make ends meet.
Some start with the most obvious and (perhaps) ideal, some start with the most down to earth and reachable. I start with natural, reachable, ideal effort. When I am thirsty I rush to fridge and get the nearest cold water bottle.
When it fails, some continue with alternatives. Like me. I am open to alternatives, although the second choice may not as good as the first. It is as certain as comparing God Father I and II. I will get reach another availbale bottle, and take whatever it feels (cold, cool, or even warm). Some of us spent most of our time with alternatives. While first attempt is available only once, it is not the same with alternatives. It can range from second tries to zillions.
After spending our time with alternative, we step to the final effort, the last of its kind. Final measure can be the umptenth tries or decision: no, I don't want it anymore. I am a mere human, with feeling and pride. Sometimes I feel shy for having (too much) refusals, sometimes I feel that I don't deserve rejection, therefore any turn down mean only "no" at the end.
Yes, I am in need of it.